I think I messed up

[sandi2]

Well.......what's done is done. You've talked to your W and told her all these things. Maybe it cleared the air.....I hope so. I think it would be good not to continue to discuss what you plan to do about your improvements toward breaking your co-dependency, etc. Your W simply needs to "see" you do it. As Puppy said, it is a very hard issue to over-come. I think it would be well for you to look this up on the Internet and study what it includes and how to deal with it.

You have mention, more than once, about acting as if you have a "slit-personality". Is that a figure of speech? Do you find it hard to maintain the same "personality" or level of emotions each day? You may be bipolar. I have seen signs of it in your posts, but of course, I am not a doctor and only going by your extreme up & down emotions. We see emotions here on the board all the time, but I don't know that I see a lot of men who have been this dramatic from one place to the other in a matter of a few hours. I noticed it in the post you replied to me. I thought I had said something that made you spunk up and come back with a stronger sound.

Has anyone ever said anything about your exteme up & down emotions? It is not anything to be ashamed of b/c it is some type of chemical imbalance that a person can't control and has to take medication to keep their emotions on an even keel. If you were serious when you said what you did, then I wished you would get checked out by a doctor who tests in these special areas. I have known people who actually suffer after having this for so many years.....and after they begin taking their meds, they feel normal and their families can deal with their extreme mood swings a lot better. It is hidden behind words like "mood swings", "split personalities", "an off day", "a great day"....etc. Everything is centered around their feelings of that day...or hour.

So, back to what has happen in the past few hours. I man not spell so good myslef b/c I am about to fall asleep. I remember to come back to your thread to check it out. So, do you feel that your wife walked away from the conversation feeling better about the MR? See what just what detaching for 48 hours did? She was happy to see you!

During the conversation the two of you had, did she say if she would stop having affairs? Did she say if it was to pay you back, or was it discussed?

Okay, help me out. You said you talked to wife 48 hours ago, and you also said:

During last 48 hours I basically dismantled myself and put together again.

It sounds like you did a lot of soul searching during this time. Were you alone "after" the talk with her or was she with you while you were doing this self examination?

it doesn't happen in 1 hour. It won't be easy - I won't always feel as good as right now,

So, what's the reason for your emotional high today?


I'm sorry.....I've go to stop again. I should have waiting until tomorrow but i wanted to check back with you. I will get back but must go to bed now.

Later,
Sandi