K4D Rising #3

[K4D]

I guess I didn't think about that. Again, I am not a quick thinker on my feet. One of my big problems is reacting before I think.

And ya, I guess it did bother me that she was saying that. So I guess I do still care what she thinks. I think I was just frusturated at that moment and again did not use the best judgement.

On the bright side of things, W wants nothing to dow ith me except for switching off the girls. Sarcasm.

I am taking dance lessons now. Thats new for me. I actually have quite a bit going on now and I am somewhat starting to enjoy things again to some extent that I haven't enjoyed since September of last year. I actually am able to sit down and watch a soccer game on TV and enjoy it again. I am experiementing with cooking again and finding things I like to eat and flavor that I couldn't do before with W. It is slowly coming along. Its a long process for me. But I am not in complete despair anymore. I am not so destroyed that I can't enjoy things anymore. Its slowly coming back to me. I'm not completely there yet either, but I am making progress in those areas.

We are in our busy cycle at work right now so that helps out. I have no choice but to be focused and I think that is a good thing right now. The nights aren't to bad. Really its the weekends without the kids that are hard right now. I am still adjusting to that. But I would say that I am doing better than I have in a very very long time.

Kevin