Thanks for pointing out codependency - I didn't know such thing existed.
i'm not at war with myself anymore. I was. I know i'm not perfectly healthy. I'm hurt, I'm wounded. I need to find a way to heal myself. It won't be an easy process.
At the same time I know I've made mistakes in our relationship - I guess everyone does. She's aware of the fact I recognize them - and she recognizes the mistakes she's made. She's not sure if we can make it work again - she's afraid that when another bump on the road comes - I won't be able to cope with it.
But I guess to make it work again - I'll need to heal myself 1st. Never looked at it from that angle.
