Finally trying to move on without H

[beepee]

hi Gardener, i feel like the fact that ive canceled his phone is a huge way of detaching but i also feel like it makes matters worse because he really needs the phone for work and when he finds out its canceled, he'll be really angry and any chance of reconciliation later on would not happen. not to say that the phone being canceled will cause all of this but it might add to it maybe.. and i feel really bad that i did it but like, he doesnt feel bad that i have to pay for it..

ive been reading other peoples posts a lot but just dont know what advice to give. i really should try tho, itll take my mind off my problems for it maybe.

i will NOT email him. you're right, there is no trying, just doing. I WILL NOT EMAIL HIM..