You are again projecting the worst case scenario and not imagining other possibilities. That is fear based choice making and so far, it has paralyzed you. Try something new and make your imaging a reality. I'm not saying "Read 'THE SECRET' and all will be well" but there is some truth to it. You know, project a positive image of what you would like to have in your life that you can create that with a good goal in mind. Work toward that and not away from the fears.
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