"I just want to be happy again. I can't begin to tell you how content I was, how blessed I felt."

No, you really didn't. When you are in moments in which you have a more objective view of your M, you recognize the pain and emptiness that lurked within it.

Above, you are just swinging back for a quick revisit of the post-bomb starry-eyed fairy tale fictional marriage that pretty much all LBS's create. Post-bomb, the LBS carries the waaaaayyyy over-idealized picture of the M, the WAS carries the waaaaayyyyy over-negativized picture of the M. Eventually, both will move toward a more objective view, but in times of stress, both will swing back out toward their favored fictional view.


Best,
Oldtimer