W just left. she stayed 30 mins. not one bad thing happened, other then kissing her, which she initiated like 5 times. i don't feel any better or worse for her even stopping by. actually, it was really strange. not uncomfortable, but just strange i guess. it was like being with someone i didn't even know.
she said how much better i look and how much better the house looks now that she isn't here. she said she's scared to come back because of everything she sees that's changed. i said whether she ever decides that or not to come back, things aren't going to change for me.
she also left her chihuahua here and said she's coming back tomorrow. i don't really know how to feel about it i guess. really i'm indifferent to the whole situation. i'm not confused, but i don't know what to think either. maybe i'm just not thinking about it at all. it was all kinda meaningless to me.
she kept saying over and over how much she missed me. she said she felt anxious and nervous when we first sat down and began to talk. i let her know she wasn't going to be judged, criticized or attacked no matter what she had to say. that's when she began opening up.
i don't really have anything else to say then it went alright. i listened to everything she said, i mean really listened. the only questions i asked was how did she feel about things she was telling me. i would say i can understand that. if it became a bit uncomfortable for her, i didn't say anything.
like i said before, i don't feel any better or worse. just like it didn't really even happen. it's weird.
