At the end of the day, I don't think there is much difference in what we want so I don't think it will be true hardball. It is just so sad it has come to this. Never in a million years did I think this is how things would go. I really don't know who this person is my WAW has become. I am sure many here can relate. I am not angry, I am just sad. Maybe someday she will look at this all with different eyes and regret, but right now she feels this is what she has to do and that it is the right thing to do. I am in my zen state, accepting the facts and moving along.
H35 W34 S4 | T-10 yrs M-6 yrs WAW said M over 04/09 | Living separate since 09/09 Thread #1 Thread #2 Thread #3
After a night of (restless) sleep I feel slightly more up than yesterday. I think I need to remember the bigger picture, and in many ways I am back to where I was a month or so ago. Yes, we are progressing forward on this breaking up of our M, but I can and will continue to do what is best for me and my mental health which includes DB.
WAW and I talked last night, and it was more of the same where she expressed desire to not be together. She talked of the many things that I have done over the years to make her get to this point. I listened and validated. She asked me why I would want to stay with her if she has told me she doesn't love me. Things like that.
I went to bed early, exhausted from the day. I woke up a couple of hours later when she came to bed, wearing just her panties and a tight t-shirt. It is so tough to sleep next to her like that! Is she cruel, just twisting the knife? Is she completely unaware how that might affect me? Weird.
H35 W34 S4 | T-10 yrs M-6 yrs WAW said M over 04/09 | Living separate since 09/09 Thread #1 Thread #2 Thread #3
I went to bed early, exhausted from the day. I woke up a couple of hours later when she came to bed, wearing just her panties and a tight t-shirt. It is so tough to sleep next to her like that! Is she cruel, just twisting the knife? Is she completely unaware how that might affect me? Weird.
Just as a side note, what is up with that? My W still showers with the door open sometimes, wears the tight shirts to bed, and one time even pointed out the size of another woman's boobs to me. Earlier in the beginning of our troubles she suggested to substitute my hand for her. Is it naivete? Or are they really that cruel in their current states of mind?
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
