Just Keep Livin' #3

[JKL2009]

After a night of (restless) sleep I feel slightly more up than yesterday. I think I need to remember the bigger picture, and in many ways I am back to where I was a month or so ago. Yes, we are progressing forward on this breaking up of our M, but I can and will continue to do what is best for me and my mental health which includes DB.

WAW and I talked last night, and it was more of the same where she expressed desire to not be together. She talked of the many things that I have done over the years to make her get to this point. I listened and validated. She asked me why I would want to stay with her if she has told me she doesn't love me. Things like that.

I went to bed early, exhausted from the day. I woke up a couple of hours later when she came to bed, wearing just her panties and a tight t-shirt. It is so tough to sleep next to her like that! Is she cruel, just twisting the knife? Is she completely unaware how that might affect me? Weird.