Hi all I guess its a year since i started this thread and went through depression, suicide attempts as I couldnt leave my wife nor could i lose my woman friend. i have lost her and my wife is hunting her and wont trust me. I gave up leaving for the kids and in hope my wife would change. She has but doesnt let me foget what i did. Still unhappy but dont want to lose kids and I guess be taken to cleaners in a divorce which she said will fight. Maybe I should just disappear and start a new life at the beginning. Help!
