Well, you sure sound like an incredibly strong person and it is a great testimony to see you sticking things out. I agree with you - good comes from bad - beauty from ashes.
Interesting about the sixth sense thing!:)
I am definitely seeing a lot of the depression in my H lately. I thought it was just him trying to avoid us but I think now maybe it is because he is withdrawing/depressed. Last night he actually shared a lot of his fears/insecurities, etc. with me again which he hasn't for awhile. I tried to just do the validating thing, not offering advice, etc. And he HAS noticed the changes in me - mentioned how he sees I can "exist" (I think that is the word he used - something like that) without him. I am not sure what he thought about that - but I know I think it is a great thing that I have gotten to this point!
I just DO NOT understand (and I know the wisdom on this board would say to not even try - it won't make sense) how he can come in and pour out his heart and become very emotional telling me these things and then go back to the way he has been with withdrawing, avoiding, not letting me in at all in pretty much every other way. I guess it is par for the course. I am glad he did come and talk to me and tell me things I am sure he is not telling anyone else, even though honestly I was tearing up because it is so hard for me to see him like that and know I can't do anything to help but let him work it out.
Such is the life of living with MLC, I guess. The good news is I felt great today, very detached, and had lots of fun out with the kids!
