It's MY life now!!!........

[Silent Chrleader]

Hey, Y'all!

Doin' pretty good.....had a good C session today. I am finding that since I have reached a resolve about the D, and am on a better footing with H, I have been thinking more the "enablers" of my sitch. A.K.A the Secretary and co-worker who started trying to "fix up" H with her sister, who is H's current GF, from the day he told her we were seperated. Remember this is the same woman who actually balled out her boss to his face in front of everybody when it came out that he had an affair with one of the other directors and left his wife of 20+ years.

I still have a lot of anger toward these women! I was able to "speak my peace" to H and therefore at least have some "closure" in a sense, but these women.........I know that I have no idea what H really told them, and I won't say anything to either of them because it wouldn't do any good, and that would be totally beneath my dignity anyway. And they don't deserve the head space I give them at all! I know all this, but I still am so angry at them! It's like this anger is really bubbling to the surface now that my angst with H is waning.

I am working with my C about this and hopefully can figure out some way to work through this and let this too go. I don't want to be a person that "hates" but that comes pretty close to describing my feelings for these women. I just don't understand women who would do this to another woman (or condone it). Especially the Secretary, who I had befriended and done a lot of things for.......she lives in my town still and I know that chances are I will one day "run into her" somewhere (figuratively....not like with my car or anything! ). And I don't know what I will do, or what I want to do.......

Anyway, that is where I am emotionally right now.

As for GAL...... I went and observed a swing dance lesson yesterday. They don't start a new class for swing until next month, but in the meantime the teacher said they are short on women in her Thursday waltz class (which came as a shocker to me because I would not have thought that many men would go to a waltz class if some woman didn't make them). So, I am going to do that waltz class on Thursdays for the next month and then start swing lessons. I have line dancing class on Friday night, and Saturday I am going to a big street festival (perhaps with my D24 & GD, or with my brother). So, I'm going to be very busy. H is coming over to the house to do a couple things on Saturday, but I won't be here.

.....yep, doing pretty good I think.....