Hey ((Julia)), I can understand how hurt & angry you must feel. Good that you are venting & getting it off your chest. I think we all hit a point where thinking about being a total b*tch, would feel good & relieve some of the anger. Been there myself. You have come such a long way, and have been doing so great, I think you know, what you should choose.
I'm guessing that you did get the cottage you looked at? It sounds so cozy & quaint!
Me39, XH45 Kids 3 dogs, 2 cats Divorced 6/4/09 Tricky thing is not how you live, but how you live with yourself. (POTC)
