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PS Sorry this is so long!


What??? Don't you know for an LBS, the longer the better??? grin

Honestly 25, I am absolutely open and ready to take a good paying job. I'd do it in a heart beat. I would love to be self-sufficient. The only precedent I don't want to set is "you're a waitress, alright, seems to be working for you." IYKWIM.

I think H is tightening up his spending (I have his bank statements) and he is starting to sell things (OW must be very attractive, he's so motivated)...H is just really awesome at mooching and he is getting by nicely thus far.

Of course, H says he sees other perspectives, he sees all sides. The "people" around him are just asking, you know?

Anyway, I'm getting you. I hate to have to cast such a negative light on the M in order to work up the gumption to follow through. It is and may always be malarky to me. There was so much good and a lot of bad too. If we wanted to make it the priority and grow ourselves, we would. I don't know why I always feel the need to qualify but I just can't delude myself.

I want to soften as a person in general. But for now, I have to be so strong.

Maybe my new mantra should be "Speak softly but carry a big stick."

Oh, and as for Marianne Williamson, I'm still working on "The Gift of Change." But if you and I ever meet IRL one day, I've got a funny tidbit for you.