Well, C session was interesting. I think he will be helpful. He met with H a few times early on after the bomb. I was surprised that he said he had my H pegged in about 5 minutes. H hasn't seen him in a few months.
It was validating in one way to hear that he saw H's narcissism and saw him as a "dangerous" person emotionally. Kind of feeds my fear a little but at least I know I'm not crazy.
He wants to help me become un-enmeshed so I can see more clearly. And he also thinks that H needs enablers so he finds them.
I see my role in this. I also see that I need to be gentle with myself and not beat myself up for struggling to find a path out of this dynamic.
I don't feel validated to the extent that I will rest on my laurels, I guess I just feel relieved to have someone who sees the complexity of the situation and the anxiety I have with the kids in the middle.
I think the answers will have to come from me but I really need support to keep my perspective and follow through.
Good job. You are worth it. Cheers Coach
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
