Well, C session was interesting. I think he will be helpful. He met with H a few times early on after the bomb. I was surprised that he said he had my H pegged in about 5 minutes. H hasn't seen him in a few months.
It was validating in one way to hear that he saw H's narcissism and saw him as a "dangerous" person emotionally. Kind of feeds my fear a little but at least I know I'm not crazy.
He wants to help me become un-enmeshed so I can see more clearly. And he also thinks that H needs enablers so he finds them.
I see my role in this. I also see that I need to be gentle with myself and not beat myself up for struggling to find a path out of this dynamic.
I don't feel validated to the extent that I will rest on my laurels, I guess I just feel relieved to have someone who sees the complexity of the situation and the anxiety I have with the kids in the middle.
I think the answers will have to come from me but I really need support to keep my perspective and follow through.
