forward: (feels weird calling you by a new name...) I will continue to try to be approachable. Have to find the right balance of being approachable and letting go. Saw H today and told him it looked like he had lost weight. Good move? Bad move? Didn't think about it, just said it. He's been working out since he left ogre. Conversations with him are less guarded (both sides), but brief. He's starting to tell me random things, like he used to. Guess since he has no one else to tell these things to. He also said some things that seemed more realistic and also did some thoughtful things for the kids. Not analyzing, just noticing small changes.
peace: I always get annoyed with myself when I feel this way because I know there is actually nothing I need to do with regards to H. No decision needs to be made right now. I can just wait and see where things go. Impatience gets the better of me and I question myself.
Interesting about your friend. And so encouraging to hear. My H still drinks and goes out a lot. I can't imagine him changing his lifestyle. But now that he's working out, maybe he'll start to feel the negative effects of the alcohol on his body. One can only hope.
I never did tell you about my dream that you were in. By any chance, is your S's room white and light blue with red fire engines (sheets or wall)? If so, I'm signing myself up to be on that show America's Psychic Challenge. Ha ha.
Wondering if now that H has left ogre, does he think about what a waste of time the last 3 years of his life were? Was it all worth it to him? He's wasted so much time and money, not to mention the huge amount of debt he has yet to pay off, the pain, embarrassment and damage he's caused his family, and the time he missed watching his kids grow up. Even if it doesn't come straight from the horse's mouth, it would be nice to hear it from one of his friends. I wonder if I would be able to take H back without any display/words of remorse or regret...
