Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Right now, just cool, though we have not been around each other much due to schedules..

Although our talk the other day she had asked what things would be like if we tried to reconcile, but later that day expressed that I deserved someone who would love me like a wife truly should, and that was not her, and at one point when I was talking about finances, she exclaimed, "Fine, we'll just stay married then!" (Do I believe any of what she say? as I think she is MLC, and the WAS??? I have been told not to listen to what they say too much...)

She looks tired, more tired the last few nights than I had expected, and has put a tape player on the bed with her to listen to meditation tapes, and has been in bed the last two nights when I got home, so I have only just asked how her day was, and both times here reply was just "Alright. How was your day?" so I let it alone, and went to watch TV.

I have been sleeping elsewhere in the house, as I find it easier than trying to sleep in the same bed with her, but that's for myself, not to try and punish anyone, or anything..