I understand....

Just thought I would throw out the idea....

Sex with my H is good for both of us....here it has brought us miles closer. I do not know if it will ultimately bring us to the same place though.

Maybe it's time to drop the rope in your sitch. You seem to be in a place where you aren't scared of a S or D. If you try and cut H loose in that way, you will get your real answer.

I am trying to focus my energy right now on my own decision I have to make in the next few days. I think it's time I dropped the rope here. If I don't I fear nothing will significantly change. Something has to change.

It's hard, we are going to have to 180 in another direction most likely. It's not what we want. Someone else said here that it will either get us what we want or it will follow through and be done. What is, is.... It's all possible at this point in time nothing we do pre-S or D is going to bring them home. If that's the case why keep trying to achieve what cannot happen?

I am sooooo sad for us....we are wonderful ladies, we deserve H's who want us 100%.

Got to go, I am crying....

S


ME48/H48MLC
T 33y
M 28y
S16
OW 8/7/05
Bomb 8/16/05
Sep 9/05
H f'd D 10/3/08
D pp'd 1/20/09,7/24/09,12/4/09
D dismissed 2/5/10
H served me D papers again 9/4/10
D dismissed 9/26/11