I wish I had the magic words to say to make it all better, but really the only person that can make this all better is you. It is going to take time and hard work on your part. You need to see your Dr. I know the first thing you are going to say is that you can't afford it. There has to be some sort of free clinic in Atlanta of all places! Your dr can give you AD's, help get you on a plan to lose weight in a healthy way and help with your sleep issues.
I can't say I have always had the best self-esteem, but I do know that no one can look out for me like me. Everyone else has their best interests at heart. Don't look to anyone else to make it better, again it is on you hon. I will be cheering you along and if I were in Atlanta, I would be taking you to the dr myself. I am not so here we go. Take a deep breath and make the appointment for you and for Marc.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory