I've been very fortunate in that respect. No matter how bad things have gotten for my M - I am still a very fortunate person in that I have three wonderful children, stable employment, the ability to work from home, and a family that loves and supports me.
I'm finding it harder to remember what was good about my M. Obviously we had problems, stress, and other things which made it fertile ground for an A. I'm not going to hold W entirely responsible for the A - although I do hold several things against her:
1. Complete lack of concern for the welfare of the children 2. Complete lack of concern for the damage to our family finances 3. Complete lack of concern for anyone but herself and her avoidance of facing her own demons, BPD or otherwise
I am under the assumption that my M can end on this trial date. It may not, it may end 30-60 days later if the Judge wants to "really be sure" and accepts the fact that W and her attorney let 60 days go by without attempting to follow the court order.
I also believe that W will mellow out a bit when the D is final and will "remember" that the M wasn't as horrible as she made it out to be.
I just don't see how that trust could be rebuilt at this point. This has been a waste of time, emotional energy, and finances.
Trial: 4:23:57:28
"You can't reason someone out of a position they didn't reason themselves into."
