Still Wondering How To Handle Things!!

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Sanderika, Im sorry for your anxiety....I hated feeling that way some days...still do.

I dont think I could open the door any wider for my H though. He asked yesterday of ideas of ways he could make extra money....I told him he didnt want to hear my ideas, but he pressed till he got the only one i had. I told him that he could move his a$$ back home. He replyed "thats only one idea".

Well, last night he came to bring the kids home. He stood around for quite a while. I knew what he wanted. SOmething I was not gonna give him! So, even after he left, he picked about it a little. I know he wanted sex. I just werent interested. Not just for sex. I dont like feeling like thats all im good for to him.

WEll, last night I was on FB for awhile. And this girl that my H and I both have as a friend, she posted something and my H made an innocent comment. Well, this guy I went out with once commented after my H and called him a "geek". I made the stupid mistake to laugh. I know he was just joking, this guy use to work with my H and they pulled pranks and joked on each other all the time. Evidently My H was a little sensitive last night about it. He texted me wanting to know if I was having fun picking on him....ok..so I called and apologized and told him he should have just went with it and called the guy a dork or something. He was just joking around....they were both being childish in a way. Anyway, the rest of the night, my H kept asking me if I was playing on the computer? He even tried to change the subject and talk sex again. I got tired of it and called it a night.

Well this morning, My H calls me to tell me he hopes he woke me up! I said no...why? He said cuz he didnt sleep good last nite. So the texts this morning have been about "why I didnt seem interested in him last night?"

Ok...im wondering if he is jealous that maybe i am moving on. Maybe because I dont seem interested in him he thinks he is losing...maybe he is afraid. I dont know. He is just acting in a mood today. Or like a child.

I mean, where does it get me acting interested in him, when days later he is acting interested in someone else? How do I move on or forward when he wont let me go, but WONT come home!!!

Help! I dont know what to say anymore to him. Its like things just arent going that easy between us right now.