i know how u feel and i know how hard it is to not let the guard down.

even when i tell myself not to let my guard down, it happens naturally.

i am thinking its normal for then to shut down, although i dont know why and it really isnt fair!

i should look for the book, Hope for the Separated, never heard of it and it sounds like a good one...

wish i had advice, but im in the same boat as you!

hang in there..

me: 31
H:29
Son:5
m:8 years in november
t:10 years
first bomb: 10/06
moved home: 3/08 out again 5/08
ow bomb: 4/08, since summer 06
d filed:6/08, on hold 6/08
moved home:3/09 out again 5/09