Finally trying to move on without H

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thank you so much for responding orich,
i was feeling extremely lonely and your post helped me.
this is so hard. i feel exactly the same way i felt the day he left. i dont want to believe that hes not in love with me anymore. i dont i dont i dont. how could he do this? how can he be so cruel to leave me in the way he did. this is so unfair, ive been trying soooo hard these past few weeks!!
im so close to hurting myself but theres no point, its not like he would care anyway. and i know i cant do it because my family would be devastated. im trying really hard not to think so negatively but this is so painful. i just wanna quit everything. i dont want to feel this emptiness and this heartache anymore. im so lost im so lost, i cant stop crying, im just sitting here staring at the wall. what else do i do, i dont have the motivation to do anything. no desire. i dont even care about my future anymore right now like i did before. everything just seems hopeless.