Beepee, nothing's ruined. We've all made mistakes at this site. No one's perfect. He can say that to you now but I don't believe that at the moment. You were pushing him, and he decided to push you back I think. From what I've seen I would bet your H is like most of our WAS, confused and not knowing what he wants anyway, in a fog, etc.
Have you called your therapist yet? I would def. recommend that. I've called mine a few times, and I know her other clients do also. I think it's part of the job for them. Maybe she might recommend upping your dose again or switching or just talking to her might help. Or at least it does me.
Believe me, you are a wonderful person, and your H doesn't deserve you. Neither of you realize that yet, but someday soon you will! Karen
