total quarter life mlc

[mdoodles]

im feeling down today, i have been doing so well, maybe its normal to have a setback.

i havent seen h since friday, maybe that has something to do with it.

now that he isnt working, i dont talk to him in the same routine, we used to talk every morning, he would call at like 7:00 am.

then he was home and i was seeing him everyday.

its hard, now he calls in the afternoon, i barely get a word in because my son takes the phone.

i realize i shouldnt be focused on him, but today and yesterday i seem to be moreso than usual.

i think sometimes the weight of the situation hits me.

my house is foreclosing and where is he? does he feel the emotional effects of it, besides the financial effects?

he caused all of the damage to us financially and where is he?

and why has she been calling? what is up over there?

and the big one that hits me is - will we ever really work out? will he ever come home again and will he end up leaving again? what am i holding on to?