I know I said I lost it but in reality, that means I was authentic and direct. I guess optimally, I would have the guts to just state my bottom line (s) without judging/analyzing him. I would take the information he gives me and make a determination as to if and how it effects me and the kids. No more trying to break through. That means, no emotional investment in what he thinks about me or says to me and others including my kids.
The nice texts are genuine. This is f'ing stupid. We love eachother and like eachother (our real selves) and are both trying to stay afloat. But, the reality is that he is choosing to deal with this separate and apart from me so he should be on his own.
