Last thread was locked and can be found in my signature.
W text me this morning saying her appointment isn't until Thursday.
the communication with her then went as follows:
M: Ok. That doesn't change anything for me tho W: What do you mean? M: It means I still meant what i said last nite W: Oh I'm sorry. I'm still half asleep M: I'm done playing this game. I don't deserve it. W: What game? M: The excuse game. I've reached my limit. W: I'm not making excuses i really am tired. I am sorry if i made you unhappy. M: It doesn't matter now. I can get on with my life. W: Fine Josh. If that's what you want i will leave you be. M: No u made the choice. u are not the victim. u are responsible for your actions and i will not allow myself to be jerked around. u can't even call to tell me this. M: I am accepting this is the life you want for yourself and i will give it to you. I just am not going to be a part of it.
I don't believe for a second her appointment is switched to thursday, as it's not one that is just switched like that, and her phone records do not indicate otherwise. After last nite thinking about things, i am accepting the situation and the ultimate finality i am placing on it. this is the only way i can move on and be over with it. I will not waver in my decision, as i am done having setbacks with my emotions. I cannot control her, but i will control what i do. i will deal with all the emotions i have as they come from now on, but i will not waver with what i said i will do.
