Thank you Puppy! I talked with Hoosier last night, too, and she said essentially the same thing. Thank you. I just needed some affirmation. Even this Strong Marvelous Woman has days where I feel kind of weak and not so marvelous.
Apparently, the fight has been brought to my field. I am of the impression that SHE WHO WILL NOT BE NAMED is coming to town today. DH told me last night that he would not be over today, as he has "a friend" coming to town. I said, "oh your HS friend that you told me about?" DH: "No, he is coming Friday, it is another friend." However, he still intends to come see the kids on Wednesday and Thursday. WTH??? Who does he think he is fooling? It took everything in me not to say, "friend? Don't you mean your F'n whore?" But, I did not. I continued with what I was doing.
Well, Good. Let her see what it feels like to share on my territory for a change.
When I woke up this morning, after a night of tears and prayers, affirming to God that I believe in his promise of restoration, but begging for some guidance through the pain, I was given a devotional reading about letting go with love, a devotional celebrating the 22 year anniversary of remarriage for a previously divorced couple, an answer to the Puppy signal, and a Scripture that I have taken deep to heart as more affirmation from God.
Acts 15:16 "'After this I will return and rebuild David's fallen tent. Its ruins I will rebuild, and I will restore it"
David, the Bible's most prominent adulterer, rebuilt and restored. As will my marriage, in God's perfect time.
Thank you Father for Your continued grace and mercy, for Your unfailing love and guidance at times I feel to weak and broken to go on. Thank you for lifting me up, for holding me close, and for setting my feet back to the path of Your will, while whispering, "I AM here, do not lose heart." I continue to stand on Your words and Your promises, knowing that "God is not a man, that he should lie, nor a son of man, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill?" (Numbers 23:19). Thank you Father for the gift of your precious Son Jesus, who took my sins upon his blameless flesh and for the indwelling of the Holy Spirit that I might discern your ways. I offer thanks through the power Your Son gives us to approach Your throne, In Jesus' name, Amen
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
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Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
