well, she had told me one day that she decided she no longer wanted us to work it out we need to be friends first and then maybe someday we can be more however at this point in time she no longer wanted to try.... well we were driving back to her van with the kids in my car and my older daughter was crying, she asked her why and she said she wanted us to be a family again. I told my wife that the consoler said we need to stop getting togeather in front of the kids because it gives them false hope if we are not going to work it out. she seemed mad and said "oh, so you decided already we were done?" I said no the consoler knows what is going on and told me that for the kids sake.
well I guess fast forward a bit not much has changed other than a few arguments where she gets pissed if i dont talk to her (i had even changed the cell number leaving her the home number to call), and she tells me she will always love me, misses me and misses all the good times we had. even says we fight because we both love eachother and the feeling are too strong (WTF?)
then she goes on to ask me about a prev. conversation where i wanted to see a new movie with a friend but didnt know who to take. she asked if i still wanted to go see it with her. (as "friends" she makes sure to say) so I said yeah sure i would like that. she told me to pick a day, well i do but it wont work for her (me too as i later found out) so she picks today(monday) well she called this morning and cancelled and tells me we will go on wed. while talking to her she also says we try too hard to be friends and we need to take it slower well IDK what to think she is all over the place.
I get the feeling some days like she is told or feels she has to leave for some reason. it's like she has to stop her self from getting close to me again
