You guys feel free to pray for that lightning bolt! I know I have done all I can do, it just took me a long time to find the path I should have taken. Oh well, I am on it now.
Basically, my job is to love and care for my kids, pray for my husband to have some sort of revelation while simultaneously moving forward with life as a separated woman. Coach has referred to the Stockdale Paradox I believe, which says something to the effect of "Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties, and confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be."
So I still allow myself to have the dream that we will one day reconcile, but I pulled my head out of the clouds to make sure I am continuing to live a life without him not just waiting around for him to come home.
That being said, I need to get off of here and start getting the kids ready for bed!
