The possibility was always small, approaching nil. As she wrote to her sister in one of the emails left on my computer, "There will be no reconciliation -- never (but I didn't tell him that, of course). I'm going to counseling because if I do I hope he'll be more cooperative about the money."
We're actually in the middle of a spat right now, as a matter of fact. She texted 3 times and then left a VM because I didn't reply to her texts, which said that the day-camp had called her because D6 "isn't herself." She then e-mailed to follow-up on the VM that followed-up on the texts to say she VM'd instead of texting because she assumed I was on a date and was ignoring her.
Now this is the woman who, 1 hour before, saw me in my running gear, having received a text 3 hours before that said I might -- or might not -- be in the house when she arrived, depending on when I left for my long training run for the Chicago Marathon I got talked into. (11.5 miles today.)
But, when I (finally) replied with a jocular -- I'm on a date? Aren't you one to talk? -- she wigged out.
You two seem way to concerned about what the other might be doing. Are either one of you really detached?
I didn't think you "sounded" scared. Why don't you make ten a little louder, make that the top number and make that a little louder? Don't worry I know the answer.
I think you might be a tad bit more emotional right now than you believe. Just my observation. Lot's of stress, turmoil and uncertainty in your world. As a coach I go back to basics when things get hairy instead of trying to add new plays. Go to a place of ritual and proficiency. Good for your confidence, energy and focus. Wax on, wax off.
Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
