My h was gone all weekend for the wedding of a former student employee of his. He called me only once over the weekend and I was good and didn't call him. He did send me some text messages for when he arrived and returned home. I appreciated him letting me know so I wouldn't worry.
Saturday I spent some time in quiet time, reflecting and reading back into my journal since last year. I did some assessment on myself and discovered that I am just not as detached as I would like to be. Did more journaling and examining of my own values, reviewing and updating my goals.
By detaching as I have, its actually given me more room in my head to check myself. I think I need to detach more because I still find myself checking for a reaction after every interaction. Despite the fact that I am obviously hormonal, I am too easily spun by something my H says or does. No matter how much growing I've done, I see I still need more growth - For Myself.
I kept busy with all my family in from out of town. And I discovered when my sister says family picnic I should definitely not plan on a cozy little family get together.
Picture <---------------extended family--------------> and anyone we've known, gone to high school with, ever baby sat for us as kids, plus all their kids and grand-kids. Also picture way more food than even this crowd could eat, everyone talking at once, but lots of fun. Later into the evening we even had a dj (family member) for karaoke.
It was lots of fun and I was tired but happy afterward. Yesterday (Sunday) some of the family & friends got together to jam for about seven hours. So many of the family are musical, With all the babies I don't get to see on a regular basis & lots of music it was great. Even managed to go fishing after church in the morning, so it was a full day.
In the evening my Mom and I babysat for my S & BIL so they could go out and have a real adult dinner that lasted longer than 30 minutes. They were astounded that my Nephew was asleep when they came home, as he hadn't gone to sleep before 11 every night since they arrived. (Auntie has the touch!)
About 8 I had a text from H to let me know he was home. I responded I was glad he made it back safe. Nothing else, no ILY, no welcome back.
This morning I spent time getting my budget firmed up. Now that the unemployment checks are all I have coming in, I needed to feel secure that everything was covered. Also made a list of upcoming maintenance items that I anticipate with the house. I feel so much better knowing I've got those figured out.
Busy day ahead today. Errands to run, library books due, shopping, then later more babysitting.
I hope everyone had a wonderful holiday. Sorry, but no time to check in with anyone. I will try to tonight.
Me 45, H 46, S 23, M 26, Together 30, Bomb 6-2-08, S 6-19-08; H left 12-29-08. H home 12-09, Still MLC in 2012! Me- I have my big girl panties on. Bring it.
