Yes, thanks, Cat, that's it exactly. I must pray to God to shield my kids from this as best as possible.
I am still stunned that the person I thought I knew so well would ever do something like this, continue to do these things like this. And I am saddened that she cannot see past her own selfishness long enough to see her duty is to also shield our S's from this. Ironically, if I were to start a R with someone new and to behave with the same lack of discretion, xW would show zero tolerance -- she'd be up in arms trying to ensure I never see my S's again.
And when that time come should God so will it that I meet that next person, I will have the common sense and the decency to not force that person on my S's, and to not even bring her into their lives until we both see and know it is for keeps.
But my ex has her fantasy and she's going to push this and push this until she gets it exactly as she wants. She is oblivious to what damage she does.
I want my S's to continue to love and respect their mother, as best as can be expected given her actions. I just wish and pray that she would actually live up to that love, adoration and responsibility.
With this trial I will be forced to go beyond just defending myself. As distasteful as this is to me, especially for the sake of my kids, I will have to attack her credibility as a parent. I will be forced to say and recount things that will be very acrimonious. I really don't want to, and I don't have the stomach to publicly defame her, but she continues to give me the ammo. Why? Why does it have to be this way?
I pray to God to deliver us out of this disaster, somehow. To melt xW's icy heart and to shield our S's from this turmoil. Why must we wage this war? Why must I have to lose my kids just so her fantasy can be complete?
