I just have my little 20-month-old pumpkin right now. And the one on the way (H asked me today what the due date was... maybe that's a normal guy thing to not really know what the due date is?)
We heard the garage door open and she knew it was Daddy. She started saying "Daddy, daddy, daddy, daddy..." until he came inside.
When H got up to leave after being over for about 45 minutes, DD became very upset. She ran to him, he picked her up, and I had to take her because she started crying and wouldn't let go of him. She cried all the way up the stairs. I shut us in her bedroom for a few minutes while H left and I cried too.
The sadness on her face was just completely unbearable. I know she has no comprehension of what is happening or why - she just knows that Daddy isn't here all the time, and when he leaves she doesn't know when he's coming back. I hope he felt like sh*t when he left today.
Last night I worried to myself that the day may come where I don't have them on holidays. I hate giving up time with DD already.
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
For me and my kids, I don't want any of us that invested in what H may or may not do. I want them to feel as full today as they would if H walked right back in the door.
Money, meet bank. That's the essence, right there. Jackpot. Lotto. A kabillion dollar bill.
Mama, I'm so sorry. You have plenty to deal with right now. One day at a time. Is there any possibility for MC?
We've had one session so far - I'm hoping he goes with me this week. He's going to be out of town for almost four weeks on military duty, and by the time he gets back this baby will almost be here!
The blessing of this is finding out how my own depression (and realizing that yes, I was!) was affecting things - and simply getting out of bed every day and appreciating everything I have and what life has to offer has worked wonders.
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
Of course, all of my family members and friends who know about the situation are amazed that I haven't fallen apart.
Well, when margarita night and drunk-dialing aren't really an option...
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
