So help me, if I ever get to Hotlanta I am going to smack you. EVERYONE deserves love and happiness in life and certainly, you deserved better than the hand the eemy and Gabe dealt you.
I would confront your family. The way they are acting is deplorable.
Time to confront the stuff behind the mask and move forward past it. Do not let your past define your future. I want you to do me a huge favor. Look into a program called CrossCurrents. I m sure that there is at least one church in town that is offering it. You need this for you--to let go, to heal from the past, to move on.
Love and the right man are out there and God can and will drop him in your lap, when you are ready for him. So, do the work.
I love you and hate to see you tear yourself down like this. you are a good person with a great heart that deserves to be cherished.
Living God's blessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
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Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7