thanks. I went from wanting to drive away forever to wanting to file for D to wanting to get H to go into counseling with me to wanting to insist that he get counseling for himself or I wont speak with him to showing up at the ridiculously fantastically surreal place he's staying, hanging out (other people there that I met for the first time), having a bite, being personable and leaving on a positive note...I really feel nuts but it felt better to just go with the flow. I looked good, my energy was good...don't know how I did it.
I don't want to judge but I also don't want to condone.
