Joshua, I apreciate very much your post. If you read back to some of my earlier posts, you will see where I admit to being codependant. It is something I am trying to work on. It isn't easy. I put my value of myself on my marriage. I always figured as long as I am married, everything else will fall into place. I have even based my relationship with God on ny marriage. I think I am a good person, overall. I do need to learn to trust that. I have a long way to go, I don't pretend that it will be quick and easy. I backslide often. Like tonight. My W just left to go out with her friends leaving me here with 2 screaming kids crying for their mother. She got all dolled up to go be with people other than me, and she doesn't want to be bothered with the kids. These things hurt, I always believed in family first. There is nothing more important than that. Please keep responding to my posts and please pray for me. I will take very seriously what you wrote. I am getting out a notebook and pen now. Thank you.
Me-40 W-41 Together-10 M-8 S-6 S-4 Bomb 5/08 Bomb 10/08 Thought things were better, was wrong. Still living together Wife doesn't think she will ever love me again.
