Living, Loving, & Learning one day at a time

[Treese]

Silent....thanks for checking in on me....wow....you brought up alot of good points and true....geezzz..

I too am an emotional person...some days I wish I wasnt...

Today I was just sitting here at the computer and my H texted me wanting to know if he could give his father money for his bday (I control the money)....when I saw that the text was from him my heart started pounding...I mean I thought it was going to come right out of my chest...it's awful....so one more phone call....to the doctor to get something for this anxiety...

I really never thought I would read that he wanted to move forward...he has said it plenty but I've never seen it in black and white....

I will call the attorney in the morning...I don't want to do this alone either...I would rather my attorney show up in court and just sign for me...I can't face him...it's way too painful...he is so ready to just get me out of his life it's scary...

While talking to him the other morning, I had brought up the OW's X...she divorced him to be with my H....they were married 21 years...well, this man had been after my H for a long time...wanting to hurt him....I said I don't want my son at OW's house because I was afraid of this man...he said..."I don't care about him anymore, he's already remarried and moved on"...what in the world is wrong with people....the man wasn't even divorced a year and already remarried....which leads me to believe he was cheating on OW....Yikes....the drama...

So, tonight I was just watching TV....relaxing...and I was falling asleep and all of a sudden my heart starts pounding and I start thinking of this crap all over again...uuugggghhhh!!!

So, to answer your question about if there was one man on one side and H on the other....at this point....I'm not sure...I don't like my H right now...at all....I may pick the other man...I deserve to be treated with respect....that's all I ask...everything else falls into place...

thanks for the kind words....Treese

I need to get on FB....my daughter needs to help me...