Sunday was more peaceful.

Went to the doctors to pick up a prescription, did some shopping and edited a short film that I acted in. W was more peaceful and conciliatory which made me suspicious. I asked her what she's setting me up for and, funnily enough she is planning another trip to Europe this weekend with an old friend of hers (gay male). I had to ask her about five times and she dodged the question five times before answering finally. She wants to go because she'll "have a baby soon" and "won't be able to do these things anymore".

I have been avoiding her as much as possible so that I don't get angry in front of her and she's been asking questions about who I'm going out to see, whether I've got a "secret lover" etc.

She is 33, a mother-to-be and she acts like an entitled teenager. She is the scum of the earth.

When I am not at home I'm fine. I can focus at work now and I've rediscovered other things I had lost like reading, chess and surfing.

I have brought these posts to the attention of my sister and she's following this situation as well. If I wasn't concerned about this baby I would just get the hell out of there. I love the home we have but I won't live there for ever and neither will my wife - I would have to leave there sometime even if this marriage were idyllic.

I am convinced that if I cut my W out of my life for a period of time and then come back to these posts for a read, I'll be shocked and disbelieving that this was my life.


Me: 46
W: 46
T: 23
M: 20
DS12
DD11
DS5

W left: 01/28/08
Discovered OM: 02/26/08
W back for 9 days: 04/08
W returned 05/21/08
EA/PA - 01/08-07/09
W's MLC 2008-2014 (realised this much later)