Hi Upside, What you said about letting go is exactly what I was thinking. I've let him go as far as everyone can see. But I haven't let him go in my heart. That's the next big step.
SH....ive never posted to you before but have been reading alot of posts lately...the above quote is right on...I am there...my H has emailed me that he is ready to move to the next steps toward divorce....he has been with OW for over 2 years now...so coming home is not likely...but I think for the most part I've let go but like you said....my H is soooo DEEP in my heart that I don't think I can ever totally let go..I'm pathetic I know...today H texted me about giving his father a gift for his bday...I saw who the text was from and my heart was pounding soooo hard...I thought it was going to come out of my chest...the anxiety now is unreal...I am making an appt. tmrw with the doctor and with an attorney...I never thought it would get here but now it's in my face...and I'm sad, and lonely....
Treese
H 49 M 45 D 23, D17, S12 M 25 T 31 01/07 OW H at my door w/proof Bomb ILYBINILWY 06/07 Sep 01/08 headed for the greener grass, Mar08.B#2H has child who is 9 11/08 pos.paternity
