(although, hopefully I'll be wise enough to know that it just was what it was)...
Possibly the wisest thing ever written on this board! You've grown so much, but knowing this is much different than believing it and accepting it as so. It is so!
"It is excruciating pain. It is the pain of separation, the pain of loss, the pain of dreams and expectations unrealized. It is the loss and death of a mirage."