Thanks SMW. I am feeling a little better today. I thought when his A started maybe it was because he had decided that he wanted kids, we had always talked about adopting if we decided we wanted kids, but I think that he just couldnt bring himself to talk to me about it. When I asked him if that was the case he couldnt give me a straight answer, and with anything else I asked about he was able to give me a direct, honest answer.

I know that if he does change his mind about coming home I will be fine. It still would be terribly disappointing, but Im trying to not get all wrapped up again. But I dont think that he will ever have another affair again, with me, or any other woman he has an R with!

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...