well, after waking up early and spending all morning checking my email ANNND reading lots of posts on here, i am finally being forced to go out. havent brushed my teeth yet, havent showered, havent eaten. been lying in bed all morning long.
now i have to get up and get dressed and head on out to my old work studio where my H and I spent so much time working together, and pack everything up this is going to be one of the hardest things i have to do since he left.. the reminders of good times, the reminder of how amazing our business was.. i was getting so much press, requests from fashion magazines to do a story on us, people were blogging about us, celebrities and designers were noticing us and even bought from us, models lining up to work for us..and now, its over. im left with a ton of our gorgeous furnituure which we spent so much money on and a million pieces of stock thats going to be stored in my basement instead of being photographed on a model in a magazine which is what was supposed to happen!! im so angry. our business was blossoming. i really really dont want to give it up but its over now unfortunately. im 2 months behind on rent which my H left and i have NO money left to pay for it, and i already let my models go, and i no longer have a photographer since my H was in charge of that position. so now i have move out and close the business down, im hoping that when i get better and settle my emotions down and feel better about myself and have more confidence, i just might open it back up. im just so angry that its stopped now while we were getting so much attention. sigh
i will just have to swallow that for now, just get on with moving everything out, cry for a bit, and deal with getting better. i dont want to lose this business but i cant deal with it anymore..just not now. but i hope time will be my best friend and get me thru this.
wish me luck moving..its going to be extremely emotional for me. i will most likely break down when i get there but ill get thru it.
Me: 25 years young H: 37 No Kids M: almost 3 years (anniv coming up Sept 25th) Together: 4years Bomb: June 12th, 2009
**LOVE WILL FIND A WAY FOR TWO FOOLS IN THE RAIN**
this is going to be one of the hardest things i have to do since he left.. the reminders of good times, the reminder of how amazing our business was.. i was getting so much press, requests from fashion magazines to do a story on us, people were blogging about us, celebrities and designers were noticing us and even bought from us, models lining up to work for us..and now, its over. im left with a ton of our gorgeous furnituure which we spent so much money on and a million pieces of stock thats going to be stored in my basement instead of being photographed on a model in a magazine which is what was supposed to happen!! im so angry. our business was blossoming. i really really dont want to give it up but its over now unfortunately. im 2 months behind on rent which my H left and i have NO money left to pay for it, and i already let my models go, and i no longer have a photographer since my H was in charge of that position. so now i have move out and close the business down, im hoping that when i get better and settle my emotions down and feel better about myself and have more confidence, i just might open it back up. im just so angry that its stopped now while we were getting so much attention. sigh
