Had a nice night up until the fireworks. And then the pain, first time in 9 years not being with my kid (s) on the 4th...so many memories of H and me on the 4th even before kids...
texts from h...more tomorrow.
sad, too much alcohol (for me that's two beers but I'm wiped out).
hard. so hard. just the beginning of all of the moments lost as a family.
cr*p.
This is the part I'm most worried about. Why should *I* have to sacrifice holidays and special moments with my little girls because H wanted out?
So far the only thing I've missed is DD's first (and second) time swimming. H has missed much more than that over her 20-month life because of his work schedule. He's worked for the past two 4th of July holidays. He's worked both T-Days, Christmases, New Years Eves, Easter...
Me - 30, H - 32 T - 10, M - 6, D - 1 DD#1 - 4, DD#2 - 2 on/off OW 4/09 - sometime Summer 2010 (Told me about OW 4/10) Separated 6/11/09, divorced 8/4/10, trying again 9/2011
