Cinders, I'm so happy to see that you've posted. I'm glad you are doing beautifully and having a great time. I'm sure that the children are having a blast on their holiday w/their father.
Please come back to visit again very soon. We miss you!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.