Had a nice night up until the fireworks. And then the pain, first time in 9 years not being with my kid (s) on the 4th...so many memories of H and me on the 4th even before kids...
texts from h...more tomorrow.
sad, too much alcohol (for me that's two beers but I'm wiped out).
hard. so hard. just the beginning of all of the moments lost as a family.
