Jman,

Welcome. Sorry you're here. I've skimmed your post and will re-read later.

For now,
Add a profile w/vital stats.
Write in paragraphs. It makes it so much easier to read and digest.
Get DR if you haven't already done so.
Read the posts on this forum. Just keep reading.
Read Quotes Found On Divorcebusting (II) near the top of this forum

Hang in there

Gardener

"My soul, be satisfied with flowers,
With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them
In the one garden you may call your own."
Cyrano deBergerac