Forgive AND forget?

[WCW]

Too much fun to catch it all up but overall been good. I found a new way to travel, I pimp my truck and trailer. Yup, pay me enough and I'll take you anywhere! lol

I might finally be getting this detaching stuff too after all these years. I was driving within a few miles of where H claims he spends quite a few evenings and I didn't even feel like going the extra mile to check up on H.

I friend is having a lot of trouble with her H. She was crying about how bad her M is and her H is being so very mean and blaming her for everything. I kicked into DB talk to try and help her, while H listened. I had to leave while she talked to H more. Later H called and said that he told her that what I said was exactly right and he told her the same things too. My concern was more that H would be cranked at me for what I said but he agreed!

Two areas of my life I have not managed yet - weight control and house cleaning. Yuck.

[brandnewday]

Just stopping by to say hello
You really do sound alot more upbeat!

Hope you are having better weather then me, we have had non stop rain for over a week now...blech!!

[WCW]

Thanks for stopping bnd. Hope your weather will turn better soon!

This morning 4 horses left, I stood with tears streaming down my face. H came and hugged me and comforted me.

Last night was also a first in over 15 years! Not only did H arrange for some hay to be delivered but he also got home before the hay arrived and was here to help put up every single bale!! It was wonderful to have him help and I have to be sure and verbalize my thanks again.

Last week while I was socializing at my family reunion H sat with my stepdad and cousins H and talked a long time. Last night some conversation with other people triggered H to remember something and he said 'don't let me forget to tell you about my talk with those guys, it has to do with trust'. Oh boy! what can that be???

Happy Birthday America!

[BeingMe]

Happy Independence Day, WCW! Your H seems to be acting a little more kinder and husband-ish!

Take care.

[WCW]

Yes he does, in small streaks and doses!

This has been an extremely busy week at work and at home, definitely burning too many candles at both ends and too many irons in the fire. But, as of now it seems to all be coming together and flowing like it should. (That's so much better than a floating dead fish! )

In addition to all the crazy busy we also got in almost 3/4 of the yearly hay supply in the last 7 days. AND, once again H made the arrangements for the small bales that have to be handled by hand and was home to help with every single one. That's the first time in our history that has happened!

I guess mostly things are still plugging along slowly. That's okay with me because I have a lot of readjusting to do to MY lifestyle that I've developed over the last 5+ years living with a WAH/MLCr. I think the trail I and H are traveling is maybe okay.

[WCW]

Is this a sign of the MLC fog lifting?
I am the chairperson of an event that recently was completed. The followup paperwork is horrendous and takes hours and hours and hours and hours to prepare and send in for validation to the National place. I've had help and have spent a couple of late nights with friends to get this done. H has made numerous comments about all the paperwork and how time consuming it is and if it's worth the effort and amount of paperwork to keep holding the event. What's funny about this is it was the same thing last year but he didn't notice or have a clue a year ago!

Trying to test the waters a bit with a little flirting with H without much positive results - yet. I'm sorta rusty in that department anyway! lol This whole ride has been on H's pace and not mine so I won't push too much - yet. I have my own indeciveness to deal with when it comes to intimacy with H again.

We helped some friends move to a new place. H seemed very charged and enthused, same when he helped with the event I chaired. A good side of H to see again!

We also had some business decisions that didn't work out the way H planned but it was in no way H's fault although he did all the work to make everything right again.

Things seem to be okay while I am too busy to dwell on H/R/M and what's not right yet. Hard to believe it's coming up on 6 years that he snapped out of the life we had together.

[amd]

Wow, WCW, this all sounds pretty good. It's the glimpses of our real H's that keep you and me both going, huh?

Keep riding, woman. Be well.

[WCW]

Thanks amd!

I had the coolest time last night! I loaded up the trailer full of horses (well, almost full, it holds 6 and I only took 5) and met up with some other folks. We went to a nearby camp that hosts youths with physical and emotional handicaps and disabilities. We gave them all rides! Kids who never have been near a horse or been able to ride all got horse rides.
A couple of my dearest memories - one girl who never talks or makes noise or participates socially got help getting on my BIG horse and she chattered and was verbal the whole ride. At the end of the night we did one big group shot with the horses and all the kids. One boy who had vision difficulty stood by the head of my horse and gently petted the horses muzzle and then laid his cheek next to the horse and said 'thank you'.

Awesome.

[Andabelle]

WOW. It doesn't get any better than that!

[Virtually_Handsome]

WCW, that was a good thing you did. I suppose you knew that!