And.......I am really thinking of signing those D papers. This is the second time I have had that feeling. He says he needs that to happen for him to "feel" a break from me. And I also want a new start. This is not how I would begin this "start". On the other hand, maybe this will be a good break for both of us. Its the 4th of July.......Both of our independance......and lets see if we make it back to each other. If so, great. If not, life will go on....why prolong this inevitability.
And if he is just saying that to let me off easy....there is nothing easy about this. He is not coming back......I know it. The M I had is and has been gone. Why prolong this and have it lying over my head every day. I have so much stuff going on and this is just added stuff. I dont know. I don't know.
